my favourite EPITAPHS

William Shakespeare
GOOD FREND FOR JESUS SAKE FORBEARE TO
DIGG THE DUST ENCLOASED HEARE.
BLEST BE YE MAN YT SPARES THES STONES AND
CURST BE HE YT MOVES MY BONES
William Shakespeare
R.I.P

John Brown Dentist
Stranger ! Approach this spot with gravity !John Brown is filling his last cavity.
Epitaph of an unknown dentist
R.I.P

Benjamin Franklin
The body of Benjamin Franklin, printer (like the cover of an old book, its contents worn out, and stript of its lettering and gilding) lies here, food for worms. Yet the work itself shall not lost, for it will, as he believed, appear once more In a new and more beautiful edition, corrected and amended by its Author
Benjamin Franklin
R.I.P

Isaac Newton
Nature and Nature's laws lay hid in night:
God said, 'Let Newton be!' and all was light.
March 20th 1727
Composed by Alexander Pope
R.I.P

Seikilos
I am an image in stone.
Seikilos put me here, where I am forever,
the symbol of eternal remembrance.
Shine, as long as you live; do not be sad.
Cause life is surely too short, and time demands its toll.
A Greek grave stele from the first century AD
R.I.P

haven't posted 4 a long tym!!! i dont really think i have any thing interesting 2 share. moving house @ the moment. im really gonna miss walking home with Robyn and Peiwen. i really dont want to think abt taking a bus to skl every morning!! and wake up earlier than usual!!! the thing it that i take 1h15min to get ready!! skl starts at 7.20!!!!!!
dad said that i could choose the paint for my room. i chose black........ but he said that it was too dark!!!!! i dont know wat 2 do!!!! new hose is near the library!!!! speaking of library, im the new head librarian in skl!! dad had started sending me for A-math tuition which totally sucks!! i never open my mouth in class. went 2 watch Pirates Of The Carribean with Peiwen and Robyn this week. we had to rush to the theatre after skl cuz the movie was supposed to start at about 3. and skl only ends at 2.50. man it was soooooo cool! jack rocked. but wat really pissed me off was the part where liz cuffed sparrows hand!!! peiwen was so disgusted. she does not want us to talk abt the movie. (she really does not like slimy and dirty things!). on this particular friday we were told to clear the under side of our desks so peiwen carried this whole bunch of worksheets with her while i stuffed every thing into my bag. we were walking home together that day. so as usual i borrowed some cuz of the sun. the next day when robyn and i went to her house i saw the same pile of worksheets strewn on the floor of her room! i just could not stop myself from laughing!!!

some peep i know forwarded this mail to me... found it really funny

How US mass-media story is made

A man was taking a walk in Central park in New York. Suddenly he sees a little girl being attacked by a pit-bull dog.

He ran over and starts fighting with the dog.

He succeeded in saving the girl's life but in the process killed the dog.

A policeman who was carefully watching the scene from a distance walked over and said:

"You are a hero, tomorrow you can read it in all the newspapers:

‘Brave New Yorker saves the life of little girl’.

" The man said, "But I am not a New Yorker!"

"Oh, then it will say in newspapers in the morning:

'Brave American saves life of little girl'", the policeman answered.

"But I am not an American!” said the man.

"Oh, what are you then?"

The man said, "I am a Saudi!"

The next day the newspapers read:

‘Islamic extremist kills innocent American dog’
no time to blog *sigh*

Ok...I just don’t know where to start... Kz last Thursday we threw a party 4 Edha in the art room (yes the art club pupils threw it) Xinyi and Chun ling from comp club played a part 2oo. All went well. Bahia and Sam came too! Only Edhas’ friends from other CCAs were allowed... i hope there were no gatecrashers. Mr. Heng and Mr. Goh came... (I know they r teachers... but never mind) later we did some crazy things (as we always do) went cat walking in the corridors (forgetting about the cc TV again) did some imitations of Marilyn Monroe...talking rot... taking funny pics and video clips. Dancing and singing like mad. Actually we were supposed 2 b in the art room.... hehehe!!! On Friday her class threw a party for her. Heard that a Kimberly went. She does not even know who Edha is! (Kimberly is from my class. She is disgusting! I always stand at least 2 feet away from her. She sucks up to sports people. Peels the skin on her fingers orally! Evelyn and I saw her doing that even after digging her ears!!! How disgusting is that!) Then on Sunday we threw a surprise farewell party for Edha and a birthday party for Bahia. Had a grrrreat time!!! Didn’t know how to take a bus so had to take a cab. I got cheated buy the taxi guy!!!! It should only cost about $8 but I had to pay about $15 to go there. Then paid about $10 for the return journey from tampines interchange cuz I didn’t know how 2 take a bus from there too!!! Dad said I was hopeless. Then there was learning journey on Tuesday. We went to the Mosque, St Andrews cathedral, Sri Mari Amman temple and a Sikh temple near SGH. My only regret was that we didn’t get to eat in the Sikh kitchen. The food smelt so good! After the trip Chun, Sam and I took a cab from school and went to Changi airport to see Edha off. After we arrived at the airport (in our school uniform) we had dinner with Edha and the rest of the group who had arrived earlier. Julia came well prepared (with 3 packets of tissues). Then after dinner we were looking for Edhas family. Just then dad called. He wanted to see Edha and say bye to her so I faced the camera to her. Then saw that he was in my cousins’ house my aunt was smiling at me… which totally caught me off guard cuz u don’t really good in video calls. Then we caught up with Edhas family. My friends thought it was time to say good-bye. Just then Edha was like “ guys I’m not leaving yet. Thats their gang, you are my gang.” So we went to burger king and talked for a long time. Suddenly I started to cry. I couldn’t stand the fact that Edhas was going away. Then somehow managed to stop. I kept on getting calls from dad. Then it was time for her to leave. I could no longer control my tears; I started to cry, then Bahia. We all waved to her like mad. Then it was time for us to go. We were waiting for the sky train when suddenly Julia’s phone started to ring. It was Edha. We all spoke to her. Julia who has put on a brave front started to cry too. Bahia faced the wall so that nobody could see her. The people who were waiting for the sky train stared at us. Then Bahia, Hui Min and I took the MRT Bahia and I just couldn’t control our tears. Hui Min consoled us. Then my stop came, I stepped out of the train and there was my dad waiting for me just as he promised. If he wasn’t there waiting for me I would most probably have fainted. I mean, I don’t know how to go home from the MRTstation!! Then on the way home dad bought some fast food. Then I went home and looked at the mirror as I always do only to realize that I was a disaster with red nose, flushed cheeks and red eyes. No time to blog about the rest… bye!

MY BLOG IS NOT DEAD!! Ok, just a little bit... everybodys talking about how they will miss Miss. Candice Goh(atleast the ones in my class) Our A-Math teacher is gonna return next week(was on maternity leave) IMrs Chan is not teaching us chem anymore, its Mr Goh(trainee teacher). There's a trainee teacher teaching us for e-math too!(Mr Heng) Mr Heng has been a teacher before. It was years ago.

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pimples

everybody hates pimples(its my arch enemy).

Tooth paste really helps. Its cheap and good but don't
leave it for more than 5 minutes or else it will
look as if u peeled it. Im sure you don't want the
peeled up look.

You can also dry up pimples. All you need to
do is to crush an aspirin and add a bit of water.
Apply it on your pimple and then wash it off
after a few seconds. It will relieve the sting
and reduce the redness.

makeup remover
I know we run out of makeup remover very
often. Do you know that a dab of shortening
can be a good makeup remover for emergencies.

im grounded! the only day i can do anything i like is on friday!( no T.V., no com, no books no nothing!) life sux to the core. edha told me she might migrate to australia this year(which obviously made me cry right in front of her). nywaez, today she said shes not,so, yyaaaaaaayy! i can only do the things i like on friday! i LOVE fridays! my friends really didnt ask y i am being grounded(cuz they know that i must have done somethin wrong(which i do 99% of the time) im the so called "bad girl" of sl society. but never mind that i have loads of home work to do this march break. all the sub except chem (mrs chan forgot*evil laughter*) we learnt the 2 dances for the 'u know wat'. sam's my partner =D. last year we did salsa and chacha (am i rit sl?) dancing is fun!!! i loooooooveee it! the inter class cheer leading competition's next week! last year our class clinched the championship. 2e1(2005) rox. ive started playing maplestory! it rox!

why? what happened to this school? stupid tests n CAs!

i dont even have time to breathe! why cant we just have 4 major examinations! why cant we have mid year examination instead of CAs EVERY SINGLE WEEK! isnt 1 CA not enough to kill us? why more than 2 CAs per week?! if that is not bad enough, we have formative tests every week! and i dont even need to mention about the spring tests springing out of nowhere. why does the school bombard us with these things! i cant even go for recess in peace! i am still not used to these changes! if they have more than 2 CAs every single week (not to mention the formative tests and spring tests) how are we supposed to study for the tests propperly!
p.s. ive taken the photos off my last post.(ur mind is not playing tricks on you)

assisted aeisha when she belayed. my hand hurt whenever i gripped on to the line cuz of the wound on the back part of my fingers (the kayak fell on it.) but i never gave up!! i wanted to do everything even after all the that had happened to me * i fgot hit byu the kayak.... right on my pelvis ( i cant get rid of the bruice!) * blisters all over my feet * cuts on my right palm(im not sure how i got it though )(purple lines) * loss of eyelashes on my upper and lower lid of my left eye (the lower part was the worst) it was obvious that i had more eyelashes on my right eye than my left( i cried a lot...*sniff* *sniff* MY EYELASHES.......!*CRY*..) * cut on my lower eyelid ( left eye is painful to touch... the brows the lids..everything..) *blood spot on my left eye. the eye....happened cuz of the flying fox. * bruices on my legs, arms(practically my whole bodt. i did not notice them im OBS) sun burns(nose & ear) was so pain fut to touch but not anymore. my skin is peeling. *uneven tan ( sun block got washed away by the sea water during sea expedition. i kept re applying though.... kayaking...about 7 km...with 30min lunch break.. was fun. the worst part of the sea expendition was the sea water stinging my eyes .
loved every thing we did

* kayaking (abt 7 km)(sea expedition)

*flying fox (was so cool) i love heights!

* belaying

*rock climbing

* hiking (land expedition)

*pitching of the tents

*out door cooking

lost weight!! present weight: 46.5kg height:157cm

peeps i have to add candles, scissors and spare batteries to the list....and dont forget to bring panadol...also the pink one... and some ointment! good luck! and edha aim really didnt mean it the wrong way*frowns*...thought u were insulting ... u knoe mushroom head refers to zen... nywaez...asked 2 say sory 2 u.... a big fat n juicy SORRY! happy? *gigles*

tomorros OBS!!

tomorrow is OBS!!! i cant even sleep properly. i mean its only on monday y the hell couldnt i sleep yesterday night!! these r the things im gonna bring :
cap
6 pants
4 Ts (short sleeve)
1T (long sleeve)
"u know wats" the 4 basics
cap
sports shoes
sneekers( for the wet thingy)
sports sandals
4 pairs of socks
2 pairs of spects
1 big towel
2 small towels
swim wear(1 piece)
sun block
pocket mirror
hair comb
hair brush + comb(pocket flips)
hair fluid
lip ice
body spray
roll on
mosquito and insect repellent
4 packs of tissiue
four packs of wet wipes
tooth brush
tooth paste
mug
shower gel
match box
fire starters
torch
nylon string
fork
spoon
thats all, i think. they will provide us with ponchos and harver sacks. they did not ask us to bring sleeping bags. i hope we'll get good ones. im used to sleeping with 3 pillows, blanket, comfort and *hint* *hint*. im not gonna wear shots cuz i dont want the insects to bite me especially the mozzies. im ready for the four daez of torture! just kiddin! im gonna loooooooove it!!!

abt the jan 19th post, u r not allowed to wear school shorts as its tooo short... sorry peeps! =(

i have a lot 2 post .....ill start with the things the peeps brought and presented for the montage. first of all: the school asked us to bring a pic of wat represented us. i could b anythin 2d. so during LEGACY(the full form is' Leading, Empowering, Guiding, Affirming and Challenging Youth'. which includes Civics and Moral Education, Pastoral Care and Career Guidance Programme.)we had to show the pic and explain to them why it represented them before we did the montage. mr.chia showed us an example he took an ang paw(red packet) with the word prosperity on it and started sayig ...blah...blah...then he said that he was prosperous and we all started laughing ....he said "not because of my size" we were rolling on the floor by then.( he looks like an oversized marsh mellow*ROFL*) then aisha presented. she brought a pic of a cat(it was sooooocute) she said"i love cats. they represent me because the are even tempered unless they are provoked". evelyn went next. she brought pic of a monkey. ahe said that it represented he cuz it was naughty and agile. nabila brought a pic of a nike tennis ball. she said" it is a ball. i like balls". dian went next...cake...said' i love cake....love sweets and stuff'. ming li:she tastes sweet.... chia: 'shes sweet who wants to taste her' ... farzana ,'i cannot show the pic, im verry shy'then she showed her boy friends baby pic and said "we share the same interest and we take the same combi." chia: in some phase of life ull have to find a partner....blah blah...
too tired to post the rest....

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OBS next monday!!! im like sooo soo excited, i mean who wouldnt! my watch's name is Hillary(the watches have been named after some famous explorers). the other watches in my class are junko(pronounse as joonko, not, junk-o) and livingstone(living-stun). there are 16 peeps in every watch. my watch consists of my classmates only the other 2 groups have peeps from other classes coming in. evelyn is gonna b in my watch and she said that shes gonna smear tooth paste on somebodys face when the person's sleeping and also dump jam on someones hair so that the ants would bite her!!! man, isnt she cruel or wat? well, i plan to set a trap for her!! haha! that would be awsome!!! this is wats gonna happen:
day 1:
*report to skl ...usual time.
*assemble as the assembly area
*wear P.E. t-shirt and burmuda/ jeans/pants with sports shoes(any socks)note: do not wear short shorts or sandals/slippers/flip flops(u can wear after u go to that place but not in school)i think u can wear school shorts after all it IS short.) mdm hamidah said that its better not to wear short shorts as the insects would bite us i the wrong places) =D (i think im gonna wear the blue long board pants on the 1st day)
*flag raising
*each class gets on their own bus
day 4:
go to pungol jetty
(thers only 1 big boat going to and fro frm the place and could only carry 20 peeps per trip!! so it has to make more that18 trips to get the whole of the sec 3 students out of the island!!!) pathetic!! take a bus bck 2 skl(1 bus to each class) im sure there wud be more than 40 seats.
to girls who want to bring bikinis for sun tanning, there wont b any time for that. AND TRY TO BRING A BIG TORCH LIGHT CUZ ITS GONNA B VERRY DARK AT NIGHT!

coooooooookiiiieeeeeessss!!!

just watched powerpuff girls and pokemon, next stop bratz so i have 2 go n study and put some info in my head b4 i watch it! who loves tottaly spies?! i do!!!! they r the best!!!!

black friday

ya, i know its 'that' day............. lot of bad stuffs happen to you. yesterday it after art club ended it was raining and i had no umbrella. i walked home in the rain...i was freezing and by the time i went home i was soaking wet....today i did not want 2 take any chances so i took my umbrella and wore my 'make-me-hot'(the past few days were cold).... but unfortunately 2day was hot and humid!!!! i had to stuff the thing inside my bag! together with my t-shirt & trackpants(p.e.). then i had to carry three of my giant text books strapped with a book-strap. after school i went to the kindergarten, where edhas mom was the head, to paint a mural for C.I.P.. i did not bring anything to protect myself from the paint. i should have brought my shorts along but i forgot about the whole thing so when i was there i borrowed edhas apron. then the whole thing ended at about 5 and boarded a bus from there to go to the interchange then i took another bus from there to go home. when i reached home it was about 7.15pm! my mom thought i was lost or something. (mom's always like that.) (actually i dont know how to take a bus i had 2 ask my friends to explain it to me a thousand times*blush*) ive had only 2 A-math lessons so far and there is a test next week!!! the other students more A-math lessons than us!!!! the new math teacher mr chia is verry, verry, verry, boring. hes the worst teacher ive got this yr. the rest are super-good! .......lalala

skooooooooooool!!!

man im gonna b dead soooooon... i mean really really soon....... and i wish it will b a fast process. our combined humanities (social studies & history) teacher, mdm. hamidah, came into the class(it was our first lesson with her.) she started asking us why we chose this combinatin of all the others......and also said that this was the most difficult combination!!!!!!!! (my sis took geog&socialstudies)(social studies is compulsary)(combined humans is compulsary)(we get to choose between lit,history&geog) why on earth did i choose history!!!!! (only 8 peeps in the whole skl chose core history!!!) i should have taken lit instead im much much much beter at lit compared to history. history is not like u read-the- book-and-puke-it-all-out-in-the-exams-kinda thing.....she said, ' if u found last yrs history challenging, be prepared, cuz this yrs gonna b even more.....' then,' i have never taught the lower secondary sudents b4. u r in sec 3. no childish behaviour will be tollerated in this class!!'...'every body is to b focussed in class and pay attention and..... (blah blah) that also includes ur sitting posture!!!' and everybody started to sit straight....'nobody does well in....with just intelligence! u need determination and dicipline as well.....' then she started showing us these rules on the visualizer
1.allways take lessons and assignments seriously and positively. remember the school vission and values.(then she said,'we must continue 2 get the best students!! we have to fight 2 do well! the competition is verry stiff, we have to work hard!....)
2.allways contribute during lessons through the following:
*have the required bks(text bks&work bks)&handouts during class.(books borrowed or loned will be confiscated)
*read the pages on topics indicatied by the teacher in advance as a pre-lesson preparation.
*participate actively and meaningfully in group and discussion(she said,'any distractions, u know u r in trouble...i will not hessitate to throw anyone out of the class!')
*allways the best effort in written assignments. hand in on time in presentable quality."BEST EFFORT"(she said that she will tear our assignment if its below our standard... and if we cant do well we musnt b in this school...)
4.have a paper filing system;a component of ca will be filing'
there r also someNOTES. LATER......to be continued....

latin...skl...nonsence....

guess wat ive only gone to skl for only a few daez n ive already have a LOT 2 learn nd if u think ive had enough of all this i have to learn the latin names of the elements in for chem. and we have to learn all this latin things for biology!! no kiddin...felis catus domesticus-cat, panthera tigris-tiger,panthera leo-lion, mammalia-mammal, prokaryotae-the bacteria, plantae=the green plants, nematoda-roundworms and all kinds of rubbish!!! and our slk motto- Moribus Modestus(demure & resolute)(the demure part does not really suit us!!*giggles* our values-determination, integrity, humility, graciousness. our vission- an accomplished young women serving with humility, striving to excel, building the past to meet the challenges of the future. our mission -'every TKGian is a leader' We aim to nurture every TKGian to be a leader who acts with determination, serves with humility, leads with integrity and grows in graciosness. the school asked us to come up with a class motto or something & we came up with the followng as a class:
1. Go Make A Difference( it was written ion the board like that...go mad(somuch for the demure part)the things were actually highlighted)
2.Esprit de corps(latin)-team work
3.tractus vires ex amicitia(latin)-drawing strength from friendship.
4.each days a new challenge
5.pasion,enthusissmo,determinacion(spanish)-passion. enthusiasm, determination
6.nullus secundus(latin)-second to none(my favourite)
7.catche esprit that we create.(this was the one which was selected)
made me a math representative!!!!= ( . found out that my e-math teachers a perfectionist, geog teacher allways thinks that we dont understand what she says and goes over the same thing again n again! a-math teacher gave birth this sat and is on maternity leave. chem teachers fast! bio teachers boring nd has a cool hairdo! english teachers verry ellagent. borrowed 3 bks 2dae: Dragon Rider(Cornelia Funke)Bras & Broomsticks'ALL ABOUT RACHEL'(Sarah Mlynowski),SKIN DEEP(CATHERINEBARRY)

first dae of skl sec 3 n rubbish

todaez thefirst dae of skl n it was not really what i expected it 2 b. i went 2 this whole new class with peeps i dont even know. the only ppl i knew were lyn, wan ying and sam lim. there was this new principle who was an ex tkgian. sl peeps met durin recess and talked abt our new class. i found most of my class mates a bit weird(but then this happens every tym we go to a new class. sams is not in my geog class. i dont know any of my subject teachers.
physical education - mdm lee
elementary math - mrs hillary cheong
additional math - mrs diane ang
chemistry - mrs chan ph
biology - miss adeline yong
english - mdm amizah
core geography - mrs tan wong
history elective - ms amidah
(i dont know our social studies teacher yet)
there r asean scholars (not asian.(i mean they r asians)) in my sis's class(1 of the girls name is pinx =D!!). we have obs this year!!! (outside bound school). we r gonna camp in the jungle!!! ive never gone camping b4. therell b wild bore and all sorts of things there!! and if i get lost i have 2 survive on bugs and worms!!! eeeeeeeeewwwww!!!! but im sure it will b fun!!( except for the digging-the-soil-and-doing-our-bussiness part and changing-in-front-of-peeps part )

there are some relatives comin 2 our house 2day. i dont even know them. thats cuz they r my cousins inlaws. my cousin and and her children r also comin. (i just hope they dont meddle with my things) i dont even like my sister touching my things.)(she likes wearing my clothes) she even wore 1 for IAP in sec 1. i dont mind her wearing my clothes. i just dont like her touchin my stuf. nywaez she doesnt. and she doesnt allow me 2 touch hers either(not even her erazer! ;-p) welll, big deal! who wants 2 use her rubbish nywaez . mom bought me eyeliner (though i wear make-up i never use eyliner.) actually she wanted me 2 stop wearing make-up .(fat hope)i told her that if she bought me eyeliner i would stop wearing make-up. she bought it for me(haha! still am wearing make-up =p) i dont like eyeliner!!! they suck! its ok for the chinese and malay gals cuz their eyes r kinda small and the dont have much eyelashes. they are kinda lucky that their eye lashes arent thick and long. sometimes i feel like cutting them off cuz when i wear spects they kind of touch the lence and part making a v shape and its kind of ticklish too. want 2 buy the stupid mind reader thing and c how it works. no time lleft. have to transfer math problems (my first copy looks like puke) lotsa stuff 2 do b4 skl starts gotta buck up.

pain..vampires..wolves...horses..

guess wat i have been aching like anything for the past 2 days after working out too much. i did toooo much push ups and it even ached when i tried to lift up my own hand!!! atleast my stomach doesnt ache that much. i lurve doing sit ups. they make me feeeel sooooo gooood. next time ill try not to push myself too much. i dont want 2 xperience another 1 of those muscle cramps. they suck the life outa me. speaking of sucking...i lurve vampires!! i think they r lyk sooo cool! lyk spike in buffy the vampire slayer and brad pit in an interview with a vampire!!! not exactly like them.... i like the ones with super shiny and slick black hair pale face and best of all those super sharp fangs. it would be better if they had their finger nails clean and shiny. even better if they were painted black!!! it would b totally awsome if they turn into a wolf instead of a bat and if they r not afraid of garlic. i love wolves and horses!!!! not any horse...black ones....dry legs to top it up....i dont mind the brown ones with a star on their foreheads.

lalala..

went 2 the library yesterday (with my parents, ofcourse) borrowed 8 bks for myself.

Barbarian by LYNNE EVING

Spin Control by NIKIBURHAM

Girl (nearly) 16: absolute torture by SUE LIMB

Jake Riley: irreparably damaged by REBECCA FJELLAND DAVIS

I capture the castle by DODIE SMITH

Telling Christina goodbye by LAURLENE MC DANIEL

Honey, Baby, Sweetheart by DEB CALETTI

Boston Jane: the claim by JENNIFER L.HOLM

i just love reading books. im kinda addicted to them. im also a student librarian in skl. unlike other peeps in skl, i get to borrow 6 bks (others only 4). this year i changed my cca, previously i was in choir now im in art club( its kina fun actually) choir was kinda stressful but it was fun also and u get more cca points. i was in soprano 1, actually. guess wat? this really awful thing happened wen i was in choir. i actually cried wen the lady asked me to sing all by myself cuz i was like scared. the other kids were lyk staring at me!! atleast some of them helped me with the situation. i wished i knew magic at that movement so i cud do that vanishing spell.

this week somethin unexpected happened, my dad actually bought me a doll! a real DOLL!

im actually 15 but i still like dolls. i dont own any. i dont mean barbie or bratz but those babie ones wit a their own rattles and prams. my dad used to buy those for me when i was like verry small. ive never owned barbies b4. the only barbie i owned was a bdae present from Neeraja, my friend back in India. i was never really interested in barbies newaez. but im interested i bratz now( i cant really buy them cuz my dad said that i have to give him $1 for every dollar i spend on them) he does not like them.

this is it!

ok! thats it. im sick n tired of being the 'clown' of the house. well if they do not know how 2 appreciate wad they have then they have to accept the fact that they r gonna lose it. i dont know if they know wat they are doing...but wat they had done had hurt me deeply...its not funny to hurt a person...cant they atleast think before they say something which wud hurt..wat do they take me for anyway. keeping on smiling even after they had uttered something to hurt me doesnt mean that im not hurt...to continue doing the same thing again n again.....this is crazy.....im not gonna...guess wat let me tell u 1 thing im sick n tired of living...i sometimes wish im better of dead....this is not fair...after u cum back from work, when i open the door ur like 'smile faiza'. then while traveling ur like 'dont keep ur face like that! smile!' then when i smile ur like 'smile like this. that looks so fake.' then when u expect me to laugh after telling some lame jokes u go 'when u laugh try to show ur teeth' i dont need to be told wat to do by u guys. im already fifteen for heavens sake i know the basics. n the basics are, dont do anything that would embarrass ur parents and make sure u obey them no matter wat ,and treat them like 'god'!!!! guess wat, all this while i have not been myself. i have been u!U! i am everything u wanted me to be( for the most part! )!the way i talk, the way i move the way i dress up, the way i present my self, the kind of shows i watch, the time i wake up, the shoes i wear, the things i think! everything! n now that i have started to think for myself u guys go 'what happened to our child!' and u guys show me the video u took when i was 3 and tell me 'that is my girl. that is faiza. we dont know who u r. i want my kid back.' it really hurts when u say these thing. so if im not ur kid then who am i ?

just fake!

each day passes by playing hours of computer games, neopets, reciting quran for 2 hrs, doing math and going out. is there something im missing. cuz i dont feel good at all. i mean doing all these....fun....but....there is something missing..im not sure wat it it is though...i think im missing skl. but im also quite sad that the hollidays r ending..ok im just kinda confused. got nothing interesting to post lately. i dont even feel like posting the interesting stuff. i just feel lyk a lion left in a jungle. lost...i think that i dont really fit in with my family..i feel really distant..i dont even recogniz myself...i used to be the 1 who allways obeys my parents no matter how rediculous they sound sometimes...but suddenly i find myself talking back to them...u just cant controll it it just bursts out..its like there is something inside me which wants to cum out but if it cums out something terrible will happen. im afraid of myself sometimes...im turning into someone i dont want to be...i dont want to hurt my parentsts feelings...but sometimes i just feel that i kind of feel happy doing that....its like something inide me is.....something which is trapped inside me is.....escaping....i really dont know hoe 2 expln this feeling. so im really trying to keep myself from being distant to them i laugh, i joke, i do all kinds of crap...but i cant try to change the fact that that is not me...wat i am turning into is not me...i like black cuz i can just hide in it...its like a mask..a few months before everything in my closset was black..all my clothes...hair bands..everything even the paintings i do will be all black wit all kind of dull colors..my pencil case was black..my bag was a dull color too...but then... i started to add some colors my closset is changing..my bag is sky blue.....but i just realiz that this person im turning into is someone who will be accepeted by eveyone...i fake smile, fake laughter...altogether i am fake...fake...FAKE!!!

ahhhhhhh!

im like so totally confused.....
should i go to the class chalet or not...
i think im not gonna go..
not cuz i dont wanna go but cuz im havin a cold
ju wants me to promise her that i would cum
im not gonna promise. i try not to promise cuz i hate to break it.
i dont break promises.. i dont like peeps who break them(most of the time)
im starting on this manga...its 'Aishiteruze Baby'
i loooove jap comics!!! they r like soooooo totally cooooool!
gonna catch HP with ju, her sis, my sis and if possible some other peeps on wed or thur...
cant wait!!!!!

COLD*sniff* & CRAMPS AHHH!

ive caught a terrible cold!! my nose is blocked half of the time!! i keep sneezing profusely!! I HATE SNEEZING! i keep loosing my balance whenever i sneeze! i keep on falling down. yesterday night.... no day..at 3a.m. i started having terrible stomach cramps then i started to cry while i was lying on my bed. my sis woke up, she thought that i was crying cuz i was having a nightmare and started to 'wake' me. then she was like 'what happened?' then i went,'ssstommaach craaammmp...'. i couldnt say anything more cuz i thought i was gonna die, i mean who wouldnt. then she got out of bed went to my parents room and brought me medicine, water and oliveoil(olive oil works wonders! u just need to massage your stomach with it and, 'poof!', the pain will be gone.) then i asked for the tissue box and she brought it for me. she was so sweet. i am so proud to have a sister like her. i mean, we do fight a lot but we care for each other at the same time. since the holliday started ive been playing a lot of com games. i loooove it! no mooooore schooooooool!! ive been asking my dad for this french learng kit for a long time and he has not bought it for me yet. i still have not started on my math holliday assignment! about next year, i got my first choice.

just lazeee....

i know. its been a long time since i blogged. i was just a bit lazy. ok...very lazy..just a short summary of wat happened during this period of time. i got all my results back. went shopping in orchard road. bought two pants, a T, contact lenses, a new pair of spects(i think it looks cool) a new digi cam(IR-300). took some funny clips in class. scrubed tables,chairs, walls, win-dow-sills, win-dow-panes and walls in school together with the whole school.(it happens every year at the end of the school term. next year we will be assigned to different classes so we all cried a lot. reika did a short slideshow with vedio clips of our class. it showed what our class went through these past 2 yrs that we spent together. i could not hold my tears when i saw it. the class started to cry when they saw it. some acted brave but i could c that they were crying inside. every body promised to keep in touch. we will still see each other next year, but we will be in different classes (no more 2.1. ichibang) 3 of our class mates will not b in this slk next year*sniff*. then the skl holls started. the first day of my holiday weekend was was spent in edhas house. it was her b'day. we had loads of fun. it was a great party. we made the yucky 'FANTASTIC BROCCOLI LIME JUICE' some of then actuallu drank it. we added a bit of apple juice and pepsi to it. im fantastic faiza,edha's edha broccoli, someboy else is called limeand julia's called julia juice. together we are the fantastic broccoli lime juice!

treasure wot u hav...

Its science exam tomorrow and I've been studying since I came back home on Friday. Hope I do well :-) Im, like, sooo stressed out. im having a terrible head ache! My sis is still studying. ppl in Pakistan and Kashmir are dying and all I ask is to do well in my exams! Bless those ppl. Dear god let those ppl who had lost their lives in the earthquake rest in peace and give them a place in heaven, soothe the pain of those who had been hurt both physically and mentally and let the ppl(lyk me) who have had a shock hearing about this whole tragedy, sleep peacefully tonight. I cant turn the clock round and warn these ppl or help them, but atleast I can pray for them. I don't know how many teenagers like me had lost their loved ones, I would die if I lost my family.

TO EVERYBODY: we don't know how long we will be here, for all we know we may die this verry second, so treasure what you have and live your life to the fullest, do what you have to do now cuz tomorrow may never come.

CAs kill!!!

GUESS WHAT? i had my lit exam today! and it so, like, sucked! this girl actually cried in the milldle of the examination. aaah! why should the schools have exams? why cant we just

have tests, like, once a week. my t-cher said that the exams wont be as difficult as CAs.we have these CAs once in every 2 wks to kill us. to tell u the truth i like exams better than CAs.its not so stressful. we have mothertongue tmr. math the next day,science on monday and mothertongue on tuesday. this whole exam thingy is making me go crazy. i dont think i did well for lit. THIS YEAR IS STREAMING FOR GODS SAKE!i HAVEto do WELL or my mom would KILL me for sure. (let me take a god look at the things that surround me before i go to heaven(or is it hell?)cuz i know i will miss them) (i know julia would say'touch wood!);) never mind about the whole exam thing. i just CANT wait for the release of the next harry potter movie(i mean who wouldnt). did u see the trailer. it was, like, soooooo cool. the best part was when the milk came gushing out of harrys mouth. daniel actually looks so much better than the last movie. and emma rox. she is like soooo prety. everybody agrees to this. gotta go! to lyn (if u ever see this) every thig will be allright so cheer up bud! :o)

hi...exams coming up...gotta study hard...good luck to all yous out there who have exams as well ok...Au revoir